Tuesday, December 13, 2011

Things are Changing

Well, I don't know for sure, but its been feeling different at home lately. My family and extended family aren't as close as we used to be. In fact I'm rarely at home anymore myself. When I'm not at school I'm at Riley's and on the weekends I'm at JJ's.

One thing has changed. Gillian is gone. I don't talk about my quiet little sister much, I know. She's always been the most reserved of the lot. I'm sad to say that none of us noticed how much pain she has been in. You might recall that my dad abandoned us and prior to that he and his parents (who often babysat us) were abusive to Mother and us children. Nellie took the majority of our grandparents abuse and she goes to a special school. Now we know that Gillian suffered just as much. She's being treated away from home and Mother says it's better for the rest of us to not know a whole lot and not worry because she's going to be alright.

However, I overheard her talking to Elizabeth last night. She confirmed what I have been suspicious about for awhile: Gillian and Morgan are our half-sisters. Casey is their actual father. That is why our dad hated her so much. I wish these things could have waited until after the holidays, but I guess it's better to know sooner than later. Mother said that things are going to get harder as she tries to find our dad and get a divorce. There is talk of sending some of us to boarding schools to keep us safe. I told Mother there was no way I would leave my friends. She said she knew that and had already talked to Sean and he was willing to take me in if needed.

I don't like posting heavy stuff like this, but I decided my blog friends should know what is going on in my family. I know Mother will do everything she can to make this easy on us. Being born into a normal family would have been nice. On a positive note, Riley and I are going to the Christmas dance this weekend. Sean is going to chaperon us and we are definitely not going to dance with any boys. We're just going for the fun of getting dressed up and free food.

4 comments:

  1. Oh Emily, we are so sorry you are going through so much, specially just as the holidays are here. I hope that you do not have to leave your friends and go to boarding school, that would be so hard. Glad that Sean is willing to take you in so you can stay.

    Do not worry about what you post this way, we are here for you as needed and are glad that you can feel like sharing the bad stuff too. Just like real freinds.

    Ohhhh you should have fun at the Christmas dance, we have so many programs going that we do not have a dance for Christmas around here. It would be fun to get all dolled up and go, so you and Riley have fun for us over here too.

    Take care of you and keep us posted,
    Hugs,
    Taryn

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  2. Oh, man, Emily...

    *hugs*

    That's really rough. I'm sorry to hear about what happened to your family.

    I hope that Gillian is able to get the help she needs. It sounds like she's in the best place she can be right now. I hope she'll be okay in the end!

    I'm really worried about you guys. I think your mom is doing the right thing getting the divorce... you'll all be safer in the long run... but I'm sure it's a scary time.

    Please let us know if there's anything we can do to help! Most of us girls have gone through tough family stuff too... so if you need to talk, we're here.

    In the meantime, try to relax and enjoy the dance! Free food is great, and getting dressed up can be a fun novelty. I hope you're able to have fun in spite of all the stuff going on.

    Thanks for keeping us updated!

    Love,
    Bree (and family)

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  3. Thanks Bree and Taryn. I knew you guys would understand. You're all great friends! I think things will end up being alright, it's just the uncertainty right now and getting used to any changes.

    :hugs:
    Emily

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  4. I'm really sorry that this is all happening at once. I know what it's like not having a dad (I've never met mine) but it must be even harder when you know he knew he had a wife and children.
    Sorry, I'm rambling... anyway,just relax and be happy until you know more. :)
    Stella

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